Maybe, it is not too late..

After 23 years, I probably only just realized that I have failed in most aspects of my life, even the one that I used to take pride in.

I thought I was good at kicking, but only yesterday did I realize that I cannot even do a proper front kick. After so many years of Kungfu, I am still not the fighter all others became.

I thought I can study and write well. But only recently did I realize that no matter how brilliant my ideas are, I cannot articulate them. I thought I could perform well at work and rise quickly, but all I had landed myself in are shitty jobs with no prospects.

I thought I have my life all planned and sorted out, but it doesn't seem to be the case.

Sometimes, I console myself by saying "hey, at least I am not that bad looking", but when I look in the mirror, that is no longer a consolation I can use.

All the "I thought"s and "but"s in my life. I really think that I am a failure all these while.